Thursday, May 13, 2010

Rejoicing in my Imperfection

I've really wanted to write this out for a while. One night as I was praying, I was SO grateful to God. That while I, we all, are imperfect He is perfect. Everything God is, He does, is just so perfect. As I go through the Bible, verse by verse, chapter by chapter, book by book, it just fits together. The Bible just works. It has a flow and consistency that I have never stopped to appreciate before. God knows we're weak that we're gonna fail. It's not like he's just waiting to punish us, but each time he points to the perfect solution/salvation in Christ. If He wanted to, he could have put an end to our pitiful existence at any point in history. Despite it all, He is sovereign over all and shows us that our imperfections cannot flaw HIS story. As much as I just wanna scream and cry out sometimes to God to fix my never-ending flaws, I sit hit here thanking Him. That because of all my imperfections and flaws I can worship a God so perfect and just constantly cling to Him day after day.

In this moment, I am so humbled by how utterly useless I am. I don't excel in anything. I do enough to get by at work, in relationships, in serving, sports, etc. I fall short in my words and my actions. But despite it all, I wanna do everything for my Lord. I hope that somehow through my imperfect walk that God you are walking with me, just doing Your awesome works. God, will you just lift me up so that I will not be a burden and a hindrance to people in their walk and coming before you. In my imperfect ways, I want to do everything I possibly can for You. I want to totally live and die for You. I'm all in.

I should just shut up sometimes and only use the Word of God. Because the author captures it far better than I ever could.

Psalms 115:1 ->Not to us, O LORD, not to us
but to your name be the glory,
because of your love and faithfulness.

4 comments:

  1. jooyoung, so honest and heartfelt! :)

    you may feel like you don't excel in anything, but those words "i'm all in" are heavy words, and I think God honors that more than anything else you would want to offer Him.

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  2. joo! i bet God's watching you right now and has this BIGGGGGG smile cuz he's just so proud of you! keep going forward, joojoo!! :)

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  3. joo joo! GOOOOOOooooOOO Joo Joo! lol. dude, you're awesome!

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  4. haha hanna always cracks me up.
    anyways, keep pushin joo God is always with you.

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