I seek Wisdom given from Heaven, not from man...

I have a long-standing relationship with the book of Proverbs. It started in high school (or maybe it goes as far back as middle school?), where my dad told me to read a chapter a day and to write down notes. I thought it was retarded, annoying, and just another pointless thing he wanted me to do. But recently on my own I remembered this and try to do this when I have a moment. How sweet are lessons of wisdom that are taught by God, rather than man? And sadly, every time there is a "do not be..." or "cursed is/are the man wicked" sentence...I sadly find that fit that mold. Lazy, slandering, prideful, loudmouthed, being tempted by the world, etc. And in those moments of self-loathing, I realize that these wise men of old were suffering through the same afflictions.

Someone like Solomon, who was the wisest and richest man of his day tells us that even though he literally had everything the world had to offer that it doesn't even compare to what God freely offers us. And we all know that as wise as Solomon was, he fell b/c of his affinity for women. I always asked myself, "what good is wisdom if the wisest man fell too?" But Solomon states it quite clearly in Proverbs 1:7:

"The fear of the Lord is the beginning of knowledge; fools despise wisdom and instruction."

This fear, this wisdom is just the beginning. As I have been learning in discipleship, a lack of proper thinking (or as I understand without us truly using our minds, which are attuned to think like that of our God) that any study of the Bible or Theology will be in vain. And I feel as if I'm starting to get things. It's taken me 10+ years to even begin enjoying the Bible for what it is, my God's, our God's awesome truth revealed to unworthy ones such as us. As my love and hunger for his Word grows, I pray for more humility, more faith, and more wisdom.